Wednesday, July 28

blog; Year 23

Happy birthday to me.

Monday, July 26

photos; The start of something new.

My birthday is coming up very soon. :)

My friend and I went to Sushi Boy to satisfy some sushi cravings!
P is awesome; I love her. We're seeing "Inception" on Tuesday. :)

Birthday present from my mum.
I love yellow flowers. It's my favourite colour.

Absolutely gorgeous. Nature outdoes anything man-made.

Monday, July 19

photos; Decisions, decisions.

Purple or silver?

Photo courtesy of my kid brother.

Sunday, July 18

photos; Watch out,

because mama's got a brand-new bag.

It's my birthday in a week-and-a-half, so m'dad took me on a drive to get myself a designer bag. In his opinion, every girl needs a designer bag in her life, and after finding the new love of my handbag-carrying life, I'm inclined to agree.

My bag is pink because I am kind of feminine that way. :)

Wednesday, July 14

blog; Just me.

Because I look like a rockstar. (Or a groupie.)

I have come to the realisation that as people change, so do their relationships to the people around them. It's a little bit like math; if one side of the equal sign changes, so must the other. That's how you keep things on an even keel. And you don't fuck with math. You fuck with math, you fuck with my math junkie friend D, and she will not hesitate to kick some ass. And when she's done she will teach you about fractals. Girl is badass.

My "nearest and dearest" are what I call the little sphere of people I know with whom I feel most comfortable. Funnily enough, a few of the so-called "nearest and dearest" aren't even nearby; one of them lives in Georgia, another went north, in the great white plains of Canada. (I was never a fan of geography, so if Canada doesn't have great white plains then you can just correct me.) They are people whom I would trust with my life, and by extension, my well-being. As the years have gone by, one changes, and so does the other. The relationship -- the equal sign -- has to stay on that even keel. That's just how it works. That's how the world works. That's what D -- and she's East Coast, too, last I checked -- says, anyway, and I tend to believe D when she says these things. Girl's a smart cookie.

Without physical closeness, I reach out to these people with something a little bit more intangible, and a little bit more raw. We exchange thoughts instead of hugs, and we forge a relationship that way. Without sight -- I don't see them, I don't meet them -- the other senses get stronger: you hear a little more, speak a little louder, and you learn to understand better. And the other person, in turn, hears more, speaks louder, and understands better, too.

People whom I can easily meet in my city don't get the same treatment. I see them, I hug them, and our exchanges become tangible, but they also become a little more guarded. Strangely enough, it's easier to hide in someone's plain sight than it is to hide from someone who is blind to you. People I've come to know from far away seem to know me better than people right beside me.

Tangible things are finite and can be measured. Hugs can be counted.
Intangible things have infinite worth. Try measuring love. Weighing it.

You sit with someone in a room and nobody speaks; most of the time it feels awkward and still, the silence can be heavy and suffocating. So someone talks. Sit alone in a room and get a text message from someone: :) and the silence can feel peaceful. You can maybe stay there with your thoughts and a smileyface for hours.

People whom others in my life may call "strangers" are 私の大事な人, "people who are valuable to me." I'm supremely thankful for them in my life.

Though that isn't to say that the tangible people, 目の前な人 (the people in front of my eyes) aren't as important, or valuable. They bring me a lot of joy. They're fun to hug. Their expressions make me laugh. All of this is important to me too. All of that also matters.

I suppose that what I mean is that, everyone you know changes you, whether you like it or not. No person will ever remain static, even if they stay in one place, as long as they have relationships with other people. When someone you know changes, you will inevitably change as well. That's the way the world works.

Nobody remains the same person very long. Everyone changes, even if it's not obvious.

Everyone learns. Everyone grows.

The people on the other side of my equal signs are all changing.

Saturday, July 3

photos; This is the summertime.

I like wearing flowers in my hair and pink on my face.

Also, I just bought Urban Decay Primer Potion and I don't know how I ever went without it. I cannot even recall having a pink show up that prettily in all the time I've owned it.

My summertime lipstick is Maybelline Moisture Extreme lipstick in Cool Watermelon that I got for $3 during the CVS 50%-75% off Beauty Clearance sale a while back. Glides on smoothly, has SPF15, is actually moisturising, smells like watermelon Jolly Rancher, and is a pop of bright colour. Not quite pink, but not quite coral, it's a really pretty colour and at the next BOGO FREE for Maybelline anywhere, I'm snagging two more tubes.

Thursday, July 1

blog; omg Alex!

I don't know who else reading this is following "So You Think You Can Dance" but Alex being involved in a hip-hop routine with Twitch as choreographed by NappyTabs was possibly one of the greatest moments of this season. And this is including Alex's really incredible contemporary routine two weeks back; that routine gave me shivers like you would not believe.

I am like freaking out like a freaking out...thing. Alex, you are an adorable hip-hop ballerina boy. Rooting for you, cutiepie!

Am also going to participate in Dance Day (end of July) by memorising NappyTabs' dance routine video they've got posted on the Dizzy Feet website. I don't know how to dance, so this'll definitely be an experience. :)